I love him, he loves her, she loves him.... wtf... cannot take it la...

你的話我曉得 無論你說得多麼溫和 某一些難解的隔閡
把愛傷害了那多不值得 沒什麼好怪的

我已經乏力繼續拉扯 沒有誰非愛誰不可
就算變心了也非罪不可赦 她只是最最無辜的第三者
就算她消失此刻 告訴我能得回什麼呢
責怪她又憑什麼呢 她只是無意闖入的第三者
我們之間的困難 在她出現之前就有了

雖然我憤怒但是我明白的 把過錯讓她去背著 那是不對的
Hey女孩你聽著 所有愛情都有第三者
我不妒忌你們快樂 雖然我人生因此有曲折
他還是不錯的 我們選擇不是巧合
你用青春大膽假設 我去將失去活成一種獲得
她只是最最無辜的第三者 就算她消失此刻
告訴我能得回什麼呢 責怪她又憑什麼呢
她只是最最無辜的第三者 我們之間的困難 在他出現就有了
雖然我憤怒但是我明白的 把過錯讓她去背著 那是不對的

Hey女孩你聽著 所有愛情都有競爭者
我不妒忌你們快樂 雖然我人生因此有曲折

words to her...

你走了太久一定很累
他錯了不該你來面對
離開他就好就算了
心情很乾脆
他其實沒有那麼絕對
遠一點你就看出真偽
離開他不等於你的世界會崩潰
轉個彎你還能飛

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽
他不值得你的淚
把那遺憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以後為自己醉

每段感情都非常珍貴
他的好你就放在心扉
記得有個人曾讓你那樣的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什麼夢都不比你的美
多少年以後想起他還有些體會
那些你已無所謂

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽他不值得你的淚
把那遺憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以後為自己醉

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽

words to I...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
2:02 AM

turning 21 tomorrow.
not happy at all, because I have not done anything good for last year, in fact, I have not done anything good for my past 20 years.
the only stupid thing I have done is waiting, waiting for something that will never come.
2 years 5 years... how long I need to recover?
I am super sick of it.
Just hope ppl can think from my side and don't look for me anymore.
you don't understand how much I suffer.
well, going to start a new life soon. hope I can get over it.
actually I have told myself this every birthday... for 6 years...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
10:50 AM

find the will shwuwei!!!
I dont want to stop at past!
I want to move forward!
I want to appreciate my life!
I want some changes...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
1:12 PM

i thought i was someone special...
actually i wasn't...
i am the normal one...
so normal... and hard to notice...
so sarcastic...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
6:35 PM

i have deleted some my words...
ey, u are so right...
i was too tian zhen...
the real world is mean, and mean...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
6:33 PM

i dun like ppl copy my idea...
i dun like copy ppl idea either...
i dun like all my effort no being seen by ppl...
i dun like ppl take my effort as granted, and forget how much time and energy i have paid to produce the idea...
and now, i have face all this, cannot blame or anything...
my effort is just gone, like i never do anything special for her at all...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
12:27 AM

too lazy to do anything...
going back to kl soon...
but... dunno oo....

i am who i am, ShwuWei
4:55 AM

7 years...
i have spent too much time on it.
and now im too late for everything...
im working hard to know more ppl, to find the feel again...
chat with gee while we were on our way bak to manchester...
and i realised that i have lost most of the memory of us, especially the unhappy 1, but the feeling is still there, even though cannot remember the scene clearly, at least, i still can feel the feeling...
when she asked me what type i want, my mind totally blank...
i dun even know what i want!
im lost! am i really dunno what i want, or im still in the past?
im so used to you...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
10:19 AM

hi dearest friend...
sorry for din upload any thing new here...
i am oledi in uk for a month...
year 2 studies is heavy...
at the same time, stress for sumthing too...
within a month, 2 of my friends told me they are coupled!
oh my god... make me feel so stress and humilating...
anyway, i know clearly that now is not the time for me...
these are all the pic taken recently...
enjoy~


our small farewell in rakuzen...


with gee in lake district, having dinner in a bar.
i so wish to try the food in a bar and now i got it...
i love the "feel" there...
and most important, their food~~!!
i miss chips almost everyday! but try to control as it is not healthy...


Lake district.
I love this place, this is my dream house, stay with greens and out of busy city... always is my dream. but i know i definitely get bore 1 day, becoz no matter how, some part of me is belong to city life... hahahaha....


the village in ambleside, so lovely...


i was so close to the natural, with greens, sea, animal... i love it.
the view would be much nicer if there was no rain.


we were on the largest lake in England.




my favaourite~! Bacon roll... with hot mochacino...
so delicious~! once a while hav it as breakfast is fine...
i dun dare to have it oftenly becoz very fat! hahahahahaha.... the other reason is i wan save money!


there is a Haagen-Daes in London, everytime me and gee past by, we will spent couple of minutes staring at them, becoz all their desserts are super expensive. but this time thanks for Euken, he treat us. and this was what i have orfdered. Crepe~~~ (L) it costs 7.10 pounds. siao~!


in chinatown, london~


with sook near big ben


with sook at buckingham place





i am who i am, ShwuWei
9:53 AM

feeling miserable... the feeling is the same as before...
the unwanted-to-refresh memory...
very regret... shwuwei will never fall into such regret state...
try not to think of the past but i just cant control myself...
if i know i will be so miserable, i rather be the evil one... stop everything from goin on!
friendship?! ?!?!?! cant believe it exists between us...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
2:40 PM

i am who i am, ShwuWei
2:12 PM

the more i deserved... the more i scare...

if the god say i have to lose this in order to have everything i have now.. then i would say is fair... becoz i also believe... no lifes are prefect...
i appreciate now...
i admit i have been abit over with wat i have now..
hopefully after i come bak from hk i can "find" myself bak...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
2:52 PM

well.. the cameron trip was fine...
wasted alot of time on the road... and end up the itenery is almost the same as last year. but is alrite... at least i have a good time with my friends...

actually lots of thing impressed me...
mayb long time din hang out with old schoolmate... almost everyone of them changed...
super shocked and scared when saw some of them have a very negative tempered. i told my others friends and they said used to it oledi... mayb i still in the simple world...

nevertheless... waiseng's driving skill.. still... i did lots of sound effect during his drive... ahhahaha...

and the bayang-bayang stuff... 1st time in my life... but luckily we were in a group... otherwise i think i will be freak out... a good experience anyway... and thats is enuf... i dun wan to "see" them... hahahaha

pictures will be upload soon...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
2:46 PM

things are getting to the track now...
i started to satisfy with my life now..
becoz no matter how.. this is my home...
east or west... home is the best...
finally got the reading mood...
goin to put myself in bookssssss.............

i am who i am, ShwuWei
6:12 PM

mood..... unhappy...
things wanted to do.... away from human beings....

furious... is all i can get from kl...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
11:22 AM

after leaving for 20 years, several times of the same experience,
yet i still difficulty to deal with it, i mean the feeling when leaving a place or seperate with friends... i am extremely weak on that, even though this is not the 1st few times....

this afternoon is goin to be my last afternoon in owens park,
my exam finish tomorrow morning and i dun think i will be bak to my room early,
so this is my last chance enjoy the view and the atmosphere from my room...

yesterday was my last time meet monica in manchester, even though we will meet each other in 1 month time, but yet... the feeling of apart has slightly make me feel sad...
like she said, we have been met each other everyday, suddenly hav to be apart for 1 month... the feeling is weird...



i am who i am, ShwuWei
8:29 PM

additional pic from trip...
source of the pics : monica and fiona...
thanks to them...




inside the disneyland...


ohh... is funny.... i think this is the onli funniest part in disneyland... i mean keep trying their caps... nth special about the disneyland... disappointed...


this was in london... and the main point of this pic is the time shown on the screen.. ahhahaa... luckily seven...


one of the favourite restaurant in london...
never miss that everytime go london...
becoz their food served in bigger portion and cheap...
and their chicken (or mayb pork, cant remember.. becoz both look the same...) is as big as a palm...


at london... when we get down from the eurostar...


is paris...




we carried the luggage... went through the staircase...
luckily my luggage is light...
hahahaa...






halzenut latte in paris...


walking in rain... sad...





i am who i am, ShwuWei
12:35 PM

life？ 颓废！
hahahaaa...
tats why i can use to describe my life now.
11am... wake up...
12pm... start revision + dreaming...
2pm... cannot control oledi.. must turn on computer...
4pm... ok... cannot liao.. must study...
4.30pm... so boring.... but still have to continue...
6pm... ok... dinner~
7pm... very energetic... start revision again...
7.30pm... oppsss... where am i? (becoz was dreaming)
9pm... wow... so fast... shower la...
10pm... again...
12pm... ok... enuf... read twilight......
2pm... ok... time to sleep~!!

this is all i have done for the past couple of weeks...
it is really meaningless...
but i started enjoy... hahaaha...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
9:59 PM

i just finish the twilight and new moon...
have to work hard for the other 2...



got this poster from the web..
nice poster...
i first finish reading the book and then onli watch the trailer from youtube..
my god... is just the same as wat i was thinking...
even though the book... is abit... out of my expectation..
but i believe the movie is goin to make the book more interesting...




i got the autumn and winter 1... and this is how it looks in spring...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
6:08 AM

im just love it...
every parts of it...
and here...

i am who i am, ShwuWei
11:37 AM